faithfully yours: So merciful, so, so Merciful

{Then which of the favors of your Lord will you deny?}

Have you ever experienced something that has dragged you down into the depths of despair and uncertainty? We've all faced challenges in life that have tested us on some scale or another.

Test, blessing, however you choose to look at a misfortunate event in your life, it is what it is.

Let me tell you what I was taught growing up...

I was told that God is with the patient.

True.

I was told that God does not burden you with more than you can handle.

True.

I was told that keep your prayers and God will not leave your side.

True.

I was told call on Him in your time of need and he will respond.

True.

If we're going to talk real life, we all know these things are easier said than done.

We know these things, yet it's so hard to implement them into our lives at times.

Why is that?

If we know something to be true, why is it so hard to believe it?

It's not that we don't want to believe it, cause seriously, we really, really do.

What is it that holds us back?...this my friends, is what I've asked myself often these past few years.

And you know what!?

I stopped trying to figure it out, I let things fall to the floor and I stopped picking them up.

It was just too hard for me to keep picking up the pieces and just having them fall again.

It was disheartening.

This is what I didn't do.
I didn't stop my prayers, although robotic at times, I didn't stop.

I did not stop.

This is the key for me.

The line with God was still there, it was thin, but not severed.

I began paying closer attention to my heart.

My heart... oh yes, that glorious piece of flesh that serves us so richly.

My mind was being an a** and I decided to stop paying attention to its useless banter.

So, I turned to my heart. It was weak from years of it calling on me.

Silly me, I ignored it for so long, it began to lose its voice.

It was so dim that I could no longer hear it.

Until one day I met a friend,

this friend gave me a proper electrical shock that set my heart into motion.

BooYa!

Get your dancing shoes on, that puppy was pumping and grooving to a new beat.

It was deafening, I could no longer ignore it calling me to the dance floor, per se ;)

And that is where I encountered something I hadn't felt, like really felt, in a long time.

God's mercy.

Oh baby!

It feels so good.

It's a drug I tell you, that mercy.

And you just want more and more of it.

So I polished up my dancing shoes and I re-remembered the moves.

I'm still practicing. I can see a difference though. I can feel a change.

When I try hard enough I can see on the horizon something fresh and bright.

And what I was taught as lil' girl is reinforced in me.

God is always there guiding us.

Trust in His plan.

{He is so Merciful, so, so Merciful}

(View from our home in Washington)

So merciful, so, so Merciful

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